I had generalized anxiety disorder since I was a teenager. I struggled with self-worth a lot. I thought that it was my job to prove to people that I am good enough. I have a disability, and some people tend to be prejudiced against this. It was already difficult for me to be “normal.” I always had to prove that I was up to the task, whether it was friends, classmates or teachers. I was always successful in class,  but I didn’t have as many friends as other children. I felt that this was my fault. The truth is that when you’re young, bullying happens all the time. No matter what, they will find a way to get at you if you’re a little bit different. I understand now that it wasn’t my fault—but at the time I thought that I could fix it if I played the game right. It turns out that you can’t please people who aren’t ready to accept you. This is a lesson that took me a while to learn. I realized that there are people who will appreciate me for who I am. Accepting the limitations, I had was part of the journey. How I got there, was seeing a psychiatrist, and I still see a professional.

Now, I have met people some wonderful people, and friends. I get red flags earlier now, and I don’t go against the tide. If I see a red flag, I try to remove myself from the situation. I realize that when I persist, I hurt myself rather than become a better person. When I’m hurt, I hurt other people around. This is a vicious circle. When I put things in perspective and take care of myself, I can be a better friend and be more productive. That’s what mental health is about.